Thursday, December 8, 2011

My Continual Journey

Lately I've been feeling like I'm on a million different journeys all at the same time. 

Whether it's my marriage, parenting, my relationship with God, work or just discovering me.  I'm on journeys, and let me tell you, these journeys are hard. 

I could choose to ignore them but obviously that's not going to work.

Most recently one that I've really been focusing on is my relationship with God.  This journey seems to be the one that's taking the most amount of effort since it's personal, takes a lot of thought, research, time and hearing what other people have to say.

Religion isn't really what I'm questioning but rather, my relationship with God.  I feel like there's a missing piece to my life right now and I think having a better relationship with God would fill that spot.

I read lots of blogs where women talk about how involved they are with their church community and I want that.  But, I haven't found it. 

My family belongs to a church, we go sometimes, but more often than not it is out of obligation, not because we really want to be there.  That's the issue.  I want to find my place in this religious journey that makes me want to participate. 

I want to have a meaningful relationship with God that allows me to have faith that things will turn out alright, or always feel like I have a spiritual place to go to when I need some comfort.  I don't want to wait until, God forbid, there's a negative event that makes me start to pray.  I want to pray because it's what I feel, not just because I need something.

My issue at the moment is where to start.  I'm 28 years old, have a semi religious background meaning I know facts that the Bible says, but how, at 28, do you develop a relationship with God?  If you have any advice, please share.  I'll take all the help I can get!


Laura said...

I have had an interesting journey with religion myself. I was raised catholic and I think because of that, I ended up with a grudge against religion in general for a while. I used to joke that I was a recovering catholic. I am now to the point that I have a very strong and real connection to life, our planet, our universe and everything around me. I do believe there is something bigger, something behind it all, but I don't know what it is and I am okay with that. I believe that if I live my life as a good, loving, compassionate person, that everything will be okay and that I don't need to know all of the answers. Someday I will find out.

Happiness Is... said...

I feel like you should read the article I just posted - it totally hit home without being too preachy.

Have you all considered "Church shopping?" I ask because my husband was forced to go to Church EVERY weekend as a child, and as a result, he totally revolted. I, on the other hand, was raised in a dual religion home where we celebrated lots of traditions/customs and were never "forced" to do anything. Together we visited several Churches until we found one that felt like home - and now we miss it if we don't go. I guess my point is that a lot of the other things you're describing, for me, tend to come when you actively feel a part of whatever faith community feels like you.

Rachel said...

I think that since I grew up going to church my whole life, as I'm now an independent adult, I find that I never really made religion personal. I know A LOT about Christianity,ek graduated from a Chriswn school, and went to church every. single. Sunday.
I've actually only recently started going back to church since having my son and I feel like I still have a long ways to go, but I also feel like it really gives me a sense of refreshment and renewal as I start a new week.

Emily w/Amazing Grapes said...

Its the same if you're 15, 28 or 40. You begin to talk to God. If you're wanting to surrender yourself to Him, and have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, confess you're a sinner and ask him to come into your life.

Don't let seeing others who have an active role in their church get in the way of what you're wanting. Going to church doesn't make someone closer to God, nor does doing a bunch of 'good acts and things for others' look up Ephesians 2:8-9. Though its good to do for others, its not the way to God.

Any way, I don't mean to go on and on, if you'd like to talk more about it, hit 'reply' in your email this comment went into and email me back. :)
Thanks for coming over to my blog.

Emily at Amazing Grapes

Rachel said...

I'm embarrassed that I didn't notice my 6 month old made some edits to my earlier post :)

Megan said...

You definitely have to delve into God's word!! That's the most important part! Don't get me wrong, church is amazing and a great way to have fellowship, but the only thing you really need to grow your relationship with God is to spend time with Him! Pretend it's a real relationship! Just as you need date nights or family nights, you need time with God!!